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[camwyn]

To two of my friends, who are intelligent, wonderful people, who are both right and both wrong and who are people I care about- you know who you are-:

Listen, you know I love you, but I just can't take this
You know I love you, but I'm playing for keeps
Although I need you, I'm not gonna make this
You know I want to, but I'm in too deep

I'm not participating any more. You two work it out. You've made me cry over a goddamn roleplaying game.

I don't want to play any more.

Comments

[estherthegb]

You've added me to your personal LJ, even though I just had added your Ray.
Just wanted to tell you I'm sorry RPG has gone sour for you.
It's just not cool when something fun becomes unfun.

My memory is a bit shaky at times, was it you who had put up a fic of Ray on the lj comm crossingthestreams or was it the lj comm ghostbusters?

[camwyn]

I forget which of the two it was. It might have been both- it's been a while. It was the fic where I tried to explain the time gap between Ghostbusters: Legion #1 and the year 1984, I remember that- I've only got two GB fics, and the other one is a work in progress and a crossover with Harry Potter.

[estherthegb]

Exactly, time gap one. I thought it was pretty darn niffty.

[camwyn]

Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.

[bohemian--storm.livejournal.com]

Oh, yuck. I know exactly how you feel. It sucks. And you sit here thinking that you shouldn't be crying over something as stupid as RP, but you do anyway.

*huge hugs*

[windtear.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

Something I learned the hard way writing fanfic: the pieces we put out are the children of our hearts. We work on them, we bring them to fruition, we put them out there and we watch. When they are attacked, it is our hearts that bear the wounds and when they are disparaged it is our selves that take the blows. Do not ever say 'it's just a game'. If you worked on it to make it good, if you tried to make it a pleasure to read, it became more than 'a game'. So don't be ashamed that it's hurting.

Take the time you need, okay?

[lizzyrose89.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Poor you. I hope they manage to work it out.

[sookail.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Such things happen so easily. If it began to suck so much, then it probably was time to leave. A good thing to do.

[little-birdy.livejournal.com]

*is mesmorized by your icon*

[mephron]

If you want to hang out tonight or this weekend, so you can vent or whatever, let me know. And if I'm part of the problem, I'm sorry. I didn't realize.

[camwyn]

Tonight I've got a function at work, and Saturday I've got a birthday party for my grandfather, but we'll see what happens in the meantime.

[mephron]

I'd say Sin City on Friday, but I work from home on Friday and can't even think about leaving until 7, unfortunately.

We'll, I'm local if you need someone to vent at. I can vanish from the office for a bit and run into Manhattan.

[camwyn]

Don't worry about it. I'll let you know if I need to vent, but I think overall it'll be okay. I'll let you know if it changes or anything.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_geekie_/]

Hey. Uh...I'm not sure what happened, but I'm very sorry to see you go. I'm friending you. Hope you don't mind.

[camwyn]

No, it's cool. I like your writing, and I like your RP style. Thank you. Can I reciprocate?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_geekie_/]

Of course, and thank you. :)

[drharper.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about this, Cam. I just hope it will get fun again for you soon.

[aberrantangels]

I am *SO* glad I missed it. *patpat*

*HUGS AGAIN*

[eevieivy.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It sucks when RP isn't fun anymore. *lots of hugs* Be well.

[vaspider]

I hug you but good. Take care of you.

[vivian-shaw.livejournal.com]

Jesus.
Hope I wasn't part of this.

[camwyn]

No, it wasn't you. The two people involved know who they are.

[vivian-shaw.livejournal.com]

Massive sympathies. God, there was a time when this was fun, you know?

[skalja.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I'm so sorry to hear about this, but of course you should take whatever time off you need.

I'm frequently around on IM if you need someone to vent or would just like to chat about whatever.

[lekythen.livejournal.com]

Hey, sweetie... I'm not entirely sure what's up, but if you need support and/or scribbles to cheer you up, just let me know. You're one of the few writers on the net whom I respect the hell out of, and are high on my drop everything to help list. *hug* Poke me when we're on IM together next.

[camwyn]

Thank you, hon, but there's not much you can do about it. Right now I'm playing Ray at the other RPG where I've got him, and that's helping a bit- plus it's helping me get my brain in order so I can work on the next WYGO? chapter. So that's good. But thank you for the offer...

[condotierre.livejournal.com]

Hey Og? C'mere. *HUG* Also: might I make any guppies or so t'make it feel at least a little better? Lemme know, hon.

Also: Miss Thunder and Chulong, cyberpunk. You may beat my brain. I sure as hell am.

[camwyn]

The problem with Miss Thunder and Chulong in a cyberpunk universe is that it inevitably leads to His Nibs being at least partly cybered as well, if only to make it painfully clear that he's scary enough to rule, dammit. And the last thing I need is a massively cyberteched eunuch emperor.

[condotierre.livejournal.com]

I told you to beat my brain. It went there a long time ago, yes, which is why I said, BEAT MY BRAIN. It doesn't need to go some places, really it doesn't.

I can get a story out of that.....

[argonautilus.livejournal.com]

Thanks for that thought...:>

Re: I can get a story out of that.....

[camwyn]

Any time, dude.

[jeditigger.livejournal.com]

I hope things get better for you soon, I really do. You're a doll. But I know very well the wisdom of dropping an activity meant for fun when it becomes No Longer Fun. Some people don't appreciate that it's better to step away.

[maps-or-guitars.livejournal.com]

Hoo boy, that's rough. Sorry to hear it.

[crispengray.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling.

[camwyn]

I'm sorry, hon. None of it should have devolved upon you. Ever.

[dragonwhishes.livejournal.com]

*hug* ... I wasn't apart of this, was I? If I am, I'm sorry. You're an awesome role-player.

*hugs again*

[camwyn]

Great googly moogly, no. Honey, you were always wonderful. Don't worry about it.

To anyone else reading this:

If you have to ask if it was you, then I assure you, it wasn't you.

[http://users.livejournal.com/perky_thief_/]

I'm really sorry to hear about that. I'm really enjoying our "Vacation" on Spira, and I hope you're not too upset to keep playing with us there.

By the way, my RL LJ is cheezdanish. Ok if I friend you?

[camwyn]

Sure, go ahead, but only if I get to reciprocate.

[cheezdanish.livejournal.com]

Of course. :)

[jerusha.livejournal.com]

Would it help if you could thwap the guiltyinvolved parties with a dead trout?

<proffers dead trout>