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Lately I have been letting stress get me all neurotic, and I have realized that this cannot be good for me or for my job. I am going to spend thios weekend not letting myself fret myself into a spiral. I did pretty damn respectably today at work. I can do better Monday. I know what I'm doing; I need not to let fear of what might happen if I am wrong, or might be/might have been wrong, make me get panicky and careless. I can do that. I know I can, dangit.

In other news, I did week 5, day 3 today for the first time. 20, 20, 24, 24, 20, 20, 22, max; max today was 33. I'll keep it together next time. It was definitely a failure of will and not of body. On the other hand, I then mustered the body and will to do basement to 45 and down again despite just having done all those pushups, so I figure that's a pretty good sign, right?